Meet Me (God) in the Mess

Mess: a situation or state of affairs that is CONFUSED or full of DIFFICULTIES.

Growing up in Church as a little girl, I have always heard God doesn’t care about how filthy we are, just come to Him just as you are and He will do the rest. My testimony isn’t drinking, smoking, fornicating, clubbing etc. I was the one that battled with “ME”, one that battled in my mind, one that battled with trust issues, one that would buy friendships young and old and they still turned on me, one that was used, one that was abused (blog for another time), one that battled with low self-esteem, one that loved hard but ended up with a broken heart, one that wanted to be with the crowd, one that would build walls, one that would shut down, one that remained loyal and was still disappointed, etc. This is the MESS: the CONFUSED & DIFFICULT STATE that God wanted me to Meet Him in, not wait until I fully PROCESSED and HEALED, because truth be told in this walk we are always PROCESSING and HEALING, for every round goes higher and higher, there is a new devil for every level we allow God to take us, and the warfare is great when we have been PICKED OUT and CHOSEN by God Himself.

Mess can be turned into something beautiful only through God.

I have not been able to sleep for the past 2 months, I have been in a state of tiredness, frustration, discouragement, mentally drained, confusion etc. I did not want to GIVE UP, I knew that wasn’t an option. I just did not know anything else to say to God, so I depended upon Romans 8:26 “Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.” But it still wasn’t enough. When life happens and the Mess that came with it puts us in a state of feeling inadequate, we often times second guess what God told us. WELL I DID! God really did show me a glimpse of my future and where I would be in the next 2 years, but when what He SAYS do not line up with what you SEE, you retreat. WELL I RETREATED! I started to doubt the same God that did it way back then. I started to really think there was know God and all I could say was “I PRAY MY FAITH DON’T FAIL.” The entire time for 2 months God was pulling on me to FIGHT through what I SEE but remember what He SAID, He was pulling on me to accept the mantle of Prayer, stay consistent in it and to also go deeper in it, even if I had to get up earlier than 4am. I was up all types of the night, tossing and turning, watching TV, looking at clothes, etc. God would bring before me different faces and all I had strength enough to say was “I PRAY THEY ARE ALRIGHT.”

What do you do when what you SEE, do not line up with what God SAID? Meet Me (HIM) in the Mess!

This may not be your testimony, this may not be your struggle and this may not be your MESS. Messes come in a lot of different ways. Sometimes they come through a strain in a relationship, a failed marriage, a misunderstanding with a family member, a mistake at work or perhaps a financial mistake at home. We all have regrets, failures, temptations, struggles with certain sins and past pain and failures that can trip us up in life.

You may be looking at your life and thinking: “the Mess I am in is absolutely, hands down NOT beautiful.“

You may have already decided that your situation is not redeemable and you are run down, depleted, defeated and want to run for the hills and escape your mess.

But your STORY is not done being written by God.

Look at Rahab, she was born a gentile. She worshipped pagan gods and sold her body for money but, through her Faith in God she became engrafted into the family of God! She Meet God in the MESS and He not only saved her but her family as well. (See Joshua 2).

Surrendering to God takes courage and when we surrender our mess we must remember this, God doesn’t always take our mess and tie it up neatly in a pretty bow with a happy ending. What He wants to do is use our mess, use our story, use our pain, heartaches, struggles and past to COMFORT, to ENCOURAGE and HELP OTHERS.

I challenge you people of God to FIGHT! Fight for your FREEDOM in God! Nothing is too hard for God, there is nothing you can do that would make Him turn His back on you. I don’t care what it looks like right now, IT WON’T BE THIS WAY ALWAYS, God didn’t bring us this far through a Pandemic to leave and forget us now.

So why don’t you just MEET ME (GOD) IN THE MESS!

Scriptures I live by in My Mess:

1 Peter 5:10 “But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.”

2 Corinthians 4:17-18 “For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of Glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”

Romans 8:18 “For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.”

Be Encouraged! Your TIME and TURN is coming!