Today being January 1, 2022, since January 1, 2021 life was uncertain, challenging, unbearable, rewarding on some days and ugly on others, it was difficult to get out of bed and face the impossible and on other days it was easy but also overwhelming to say the least. It was one fight after the other, one struggle after the other, it was one storm after the other, as time went on nothing made sense anymore as I watched things good and bad unfold in the natural and spiritual. It was these moments that made me realize my life was not my own. Needless to say, the things I use to cry about I found myself laughing and praying about therefore, I prayed more than I cried. I grew pass the emotional roller coaster but I also found myself suppressing things I needed to deal with in order to continue growing. So I had to ask God some hard questions because usually not facing it, not talking about it, not dealing with it is always easier right? But that doesn’t help us grow up, we have got to face the hard things within us in order to heal properly and reach that level of wholeness that has been ordained for us, because operating from a hurt place can be damaging to others.

Side Bar: A wise Woman of God, My Pastor to be exact, told me months ago, see God in it all, ask God, what is it He wants you to learn? What is it He’s trying to teach you? What is it He’s trying to get out of you? Because nothing just comes to make us doubt the very existence of who God is and what He’s capable of doing. Things come to TEST and HUMBLE us, it is not what we GO THROUGH, it is HOW we GO THROUGH IT. GOD IS IN THE DETAILS!

Certainly, when life deals us a hand we deem unbearable, with a natural eye we don’t see God working and we want to believe that all things really do work together for good to those who love God (Romans 8:28). But the bible didn’t say ALL GOOD THINGS, ALL BAD THINGS, ALL UNCERTAIN THINGS, simply put ALL THINGS; the good, the bad, the ugly, the indifferent, the uncertain, IT IS ALL IN THE DETAILS of what God has already spoken. Indeed, God allows us to wander in the wilderness from time to time, because adversity does not build character, adversity reveals character and what comes out of us during adversity helps us to see what is really inside of us and tells us who we really are. During this season of my life “GROWTH SEASON” I found myself apologizing to individuals that initially wronged me, even in their wrong I’m the one that represents Christ, I’m the one that God sought out to be the example, most importantly I am the one with the Holy Ghost. But I wanted to be in my feelings, I wanted to be the victim instead of seeing exactly what God was trying to show me and when we do not obey God, when we do not listen, and try to do this thing on our own we make a bigger mess of it. It showed me MYSELF in the process, remember BUILD vs. REVEAL! It’s something about not forgiving people, I didn’t go back and apologize because I wanted to rebuild relationships, I had to go back because my heart in God wasn’t right and I did not properly handle my pain. I got so caught up in the PAIN, that I almost missed the PURPOSE of the PROCESS. The bibles says in 1 Peter 5:10 (KJV) “But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto His eternal Glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, establish, strengthen, settle you.” God knew there would be days of suffering, He knew we’d have bad days, and He knew we’d get our little feelings hurt but it’s intended only for a little while, people of God, He is in the Details of your Life.

On October 31, 2021 I preached a message titled “You’ve Been Picked Out, to be Picked On” during the process of delivery, God begin to deal with me as it relates to Spiritual Maturity. Which is where Growth and Grow up comes in. Though this past year was trying, I can honestly say I grew up in areas I thought I’d keep that Little Girl in me hidden, I grew up mentally, emotionally, and spiritually which is why I found it easy to accept God’s correction on my Spiritual Maturity. GOD IS IN THE DETAILS! The Bible says in Jeremiah 29:11 (KJV) “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” One day I was having a melt down about something that God was showing me didn’t matter but I didn’t see it the way He wanted me to or maybe I just didn’t want to see it that way.

Sidebar: Adulting can be quite difficult at times. Growing Pains is even more difficult. It wasn’t until I became an adult mentally that I begin to appreciate all things I was disciplined for growing up. I now appreciate the things and the people I took for granted. I realized we can be adults in AGE but not in MIND. And the Body of Christ are the ones screaming “I’m grown” but will not be grown enough to TALK ABOUT IT (My next blog “We Need To Talk”). Stay Tuned!

Once I pulled myself together to hear God, He begin to tell me, Spiritual Maturity is when we can identify the attack and not ignore the necessary GROWTH steps that the attack comes to push us into. It is the depth of identifying and or realizing the GROWING reality of what is. We can’t be petty and be Spiritually Mature; being petty can cause the demise of not only our GROWTH but someone else’s. It can cause us to miss the level of GROWTH ordained to help us GROW beyond us. Spiritual Maturity is knowing when to speak and when to be silent, everything that happens doesn’t require our opinion, Spiritual Maturity causes us to self reflect and self evaluate even when it’s painful to do so (message me for the full version of Spiritual Maturity). I come to the realization that our go through has nothing to do with the individuals assigned to us, we can not forfeit GROWING UP in God because someone hurt us, we can not forfeit LEADING because of an uncertain and potentially damaging season, we can not forfeit TEACHING our students because life dealt us an uncertain hand, we can not forfeit being a Wife to our Husband, a Faithful Servant in our Church, a Mother/Father to our Children, a Mentor to our Mentees, a Friend/Sister/Brother to the people that entrusted us with their hearts etc. because we don’t feel like being bothered, because of a sudden shift in our lives, because we are lonely, because we don’t know where God is and what He’s doing. GOD IS IN THE DETAILS and we can not approach a supernatural window with a logical mentality, see God in the disruption. When things are looking up, we Thank Him. Why not Thank Him when things aren’t looking up? Easier said than done right? No, it was tough, it was hard being left where I was, but IT HAD TO HAPPEN, for my GROWTH and YOURS. The Plan, Promise, and Prophecy concerning our lives has all been in the DETAILS. People of God this is not the time to GIVE UP, Pastor Sarah Jakes Roberts said it best Girl, GET UP. Oglatha B. says GET UP, don’t give the enemy any more credit than he deserves. Yes the warfare has been great but the reward is greater. IT’S STILL GOING HAPPEN! The last season may have DISTRACTED YOU, but it didn’t DAMAGE OR DESTROY YOU. You must know by now GOD IS IN THE DETAILS. Just WATCH and don’t WASTE your WAIT.